Just had another rejection, after a second interview that went really well. Crying now so please be a bit gentle (am not on AIBU for that reason). Also this might be long, sorry.
I am trying to get back into full time work. I used to be a teacher, got up to head of department but lost the love for it / got fed up with all the shit behaviour and long hours, so didn't go back after my second mat leave.
Had a couple of years off completely then started working for a further ed company; job title was quality manager but essentially I was there to try to get them through Ofsted. I understood that I was meant to be helping them to improve their practice so they would be compliant, came to realise they wanted me to find ways to trick them through Ofsted without really changing anything. Despite being on nearly double what I'd earned as a teacher, I wasn't happy with the level of dishonesty & deceit I was being asked to take part in and I decided to leave after 18months ish.
Was without work for around 8 months and then managed to get a very part time job (under 8hrs a week) with a branch of the local council.
I desperately need to get back to full time work. NOT TEACHING. We are on debt and struggling and it's not fair on my DH to have to shoulder all financial responsibility. But I have been applying and interviewing for months and I'm getting nowhere.
Essentially it's breaking down in one of three ways:
- Applying for jobs at the top end of the salary/ responsibility / seniority that I've held in the past = not getting them as not enough experience. Fair enough tbh.
- Applying for midling level jobs in terms of salary and responsibilities. Getting though to final stage interviews, but losing out to someone with more direct experience or just not scoring quite as highly as another candidate.
- Applying for jobs at the bottom end of salary and responsibilities. £25k jobs. Not getting because they think I will get bored or want more money or want to move on too quickly. This was the case for the one I got rejected for today, even though I'd said very clearly in the interview that I was happy with the offered salary as I was moving into a sector I haven't worked in before and I was really enthusiastic about the role and the company (genuinely so).
What the hell do I do? It feels like a can't get a job no matter what I do. I have too much experience or not enough. I don't have enough qualifications or I have too many. I'm forty years old and I'm shitting myself that I am never going to be able to get another career. I can't go back to teaching, it fucked my mental health and left me suicidal, I'm still on and off antidepressants now, years later.
I just don't know what to do from here.