I've posted here before about leaving my job at Christmas and maybe giving up teaching altogether, but I am drafting my letter of resignation and am still struggling to make a decision. I have anxiety which has flared up massively in the last few months. It makes it really hard to know what to do - I worry that leaving work will not take away the under lying issues.
I currently work part time. I have always really struggled to compartmentalise my teaching workload - in theory I have a couple of days off in the week that I can use to catch up on planning etc, but in reality I find it really hard to be effective and efficient with this time and the job I am paid 2 days a week for takes over my life. I am not present for my husband or kids (who have now named me 'grumpy mummy')
My role is officially a job share - but I am the 'lead' teacher and therefore responsible for all the planning, assessment etc. The other half of the job share is really just a cover position... so full class (SEN so fewer children but lots of additional paperwork/ support staff management etc) responsibilities fall to me. I feel out of my depth a lot of the time and I can get so overwhelmed by my workload I end up having to self-medicate just to open my emails.
All of this makes it clear that the answer is to leave. I am fortunate that financially we can manage without my salary (which is tiny anyway) until I can find something else.
But... I am 45, I have very little pension - I only retrained as a teacher in my mid 30s and my previous admin jobs were not pensionable. In the last 10 years I have had several breaks as a SAHM and my CV is a mess. In rational moments, I am also aware that I have probably done the hardest part - I've been in the post for a year. I have some great colleagues and a secure position. I know that the problem is not just the job but with my MH.
Sorry this is so long and disjointed - I am really struggling to be rational about it all and have few people I can really speak to about it in real life, friends see me unhappy and don't understand why I don't just quit.
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Heathofhares · 08/10/2021 10:52
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