Heartbroken

[twinkle36]

Not sure why I'm posting here but I guess I just need a handhold
I adopted a gorgeous border collie from a rescue when he was a pup 3 years ago and he is honestly the most amazing dog but unfortunately I need to find him a new home
Due to relationship break downs I now live on my own and have started a new job doing 4 night shifts a week. I don't have family or friends able to help me and this has resulted in him being on his own around 50 hours a week which is making him so unhappy😔
I've come to the heart breaking decision and contacted the rescue I originally got him from to find a new home and they have arranged to come and collect him at 1pm tomorrow.
I can't put into words how heartbroken I am but I know deep down this is 100% this is what's best for him. He's been there for me through a lot and he's my best friend and my rock. Before I started work we did everything together, he slept in my bed, we ate together and he came everywhere with me.
I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to cope with him not being here with me 💔

[AvocadosBeforeMortgages]

Sorry I think you misunderstood! I'm the adopter. I just wish my dog's previous owners (who I knew personally) had kept in touch; I hope you're able to keep in touch with his new carers

[twinkle36]

@BiteyShark - thank you I know he's in a good place and having a lot of fun already ❤️
@IncrediblySadToo - I've slept the day away as I'm back in tonight it was so strange waking up to videos of him rather than him diving on me but he does seem very happy which has made me relax a lot more x
@ohbigdaddio - I'm doing okay thank you I know I have made the right decision for him thank you 💕
@AvocadosBeforeMortgages - I'm so sorry you have been through something similar and I hope you too are doing okay! It must of been awful to not know how your fury friend is doing x

@spiderlight - thank you so much for the words of reassurance and It makes me so happy to know that they are people out there willing to give dogs a home who have been in such a unfortunate decision xx

[spiderlight]

Oh twinkle - I am so sorry that you've had to do this. if it's any consolation to you at all, the cocker boy currently trundling a treat toy around my living room had to be given up under similar circumstances by owners who adored him, and his rescue went to great lengths to find just the right home for him. We love him dearly and have sent updates and lots of photos to his original family. Hopefully your Badger's new home will do the same. I'm thinking of you at this hard, hard time. You've done a very brave and selfless thing.

[ohbigdaddio]

How are you doing this morning twinkle36? Really feel for you. Sending hugs xxx

[AvocadosBeforeMortgages]

It's lovely that they've sent you a video so soon and you've been able to see him having so much fun.

It would be weird if you hadn't spent all night thinking about him. All I can say is that this will be harder on you than it is on Badger I hope you manage to get some sleep after your shift.

I wish my dog's previous owners had kept in touch. Very very different circumstances around the adoption, but they emigrated, split up, and I eventually realised that they'd quietly unfollowed the Instagram where I often post pictures of him Do make an effort to keep in touch with them; it's always nice to think that there's someone else out there in the universe who cares about your dog too.

[IncrediblySadToo]

That’s lovely that they’ve sent a video already. They sound really nice & running around on the farm will be great fun for him. I hope you can get some sleep after a long night shift x

[BiteyShark]

Oh OP, how heartbreaking for you

Of all the situations I have read on here yours is one of those where I think your reasons for rehoming is correct having tried and failed to find a solution that is in the best interest for badger.

You have done the right thing going back to the rescue and it sounds like the foster home is ideal for him.

[twinkle36]

@IncrediblySadToo - they sent me a video of him running through the fields having the time of his life❤️ thank you so much💕
@pinkhousesarebest- it's heart breaking isn't it! They are part of the family I'm sorry you had to go through this too x
@AvocadosBeforeMortgages - thank you it's a very long night at work I'm just constantly thinking about him x
@user1468246318 - thank you so much I'm so sorry to hear about your fury friend I hope you are doing okay x

[user1468246318]

I hope you’re doing ok this evening, you’ve really done the best for him in the long term so just remind yourself of that. The home on the farm sounds lovely and will be good that you’ll be able to know he’s doing ok. My own fury friend died suddenly just a couple of months ago and I’m still finding his loss difficult so I know a little of how you feel, but I am trying to remember all the good times we shared as much as possible and in time you’ll be the same xx

[AvocadosBeforeMortgages]

Thinking of you and Badger this afternoon Twinkle

[pinkhousesarebest]

Bless you. Wish I could give you a hug. I had to leave my dog, twenty years ago now, as we moved abroad and I couldn't bring him. The pain - I still can't bear to think about it.

[IncrediblySadToo]

((((HUG))))

I hope he’s a happy pup at the farm x

...& I hope you’ll be ok. It’s a very hard thing you’ve done. Please be kind to yourself x

[twinkle36]

Well after a very emotional and heart breaking goodbye badger is now off to his foster home💔 it was one of the worst experiences I've had he wouldn't get in the car without me so I got in with him and when I got out he cried and barked as if he was in pain😔
At least I know I have made the right decision and he can now be truly happy like he deserves as he's perfect❤️

[twinkle36]

@hullaballoonie - thank you x
@IncrediblySadToo - she is already very spoilt I make sure she already has the best of the best as she is too a rescue x

[IncrediblySadToo]

You’re very strong x

You’re going to have the most loved & cuddled cat 🐱

[hullaballoonie]

Ah I'm glad you still have a furry friend by your side. Very best wishes OP, be kind to yourself

[twinkle36]

@IncrediblySadToo - thank you💕 the lady has just messaged me saying she is on her way so we are having our final goodbyes x
@hullaballoonie - hi I already have a rescue cat she's strictly a indoor cat I've had her around a year now x

[hullaballoonie]

You are 100% doing the right thing by your dog, I am just so sorry its so heartbreaking for you. When you feel strong enough I would gently suggest you consider the possibility of adopting a rescue cat. They can be left alone and you can even get cats that need to be indoors, as long as they have water, litter tray, maybe a scratching post or cat tree, they are happy to snooze while you are out and provide company when you're home. Might not feel right for you but I just wanted to suggest it.

[IncrediblySadToo]

You’re being very self less and strong. If you think this is your best option then that’s what needs to be done. I hope he enjoys life on the farm. I’m sure whoever adopts him will love him loads too.

My heart is 💔 for you though x

[twinkle36]

@AvocadosBeforeMortgages - he will defiantly still be receiving Christmas and birthday presents as he always has done last year for his birthday I had him a cake made and we had a trip to a pet shop💕
@Starlight2004 - he's on his own from 7pm which is when I set off for work till around half 8/9 in the morning I've tried having him sleep downstairs but he just constantly barked and I even set a camera up too see what he got up to and he urinated in my bed, chewed shoes, pooed everywhere and was clearly very distressed, by the time I get home I am absolutely worn out x

[Starlight2004]

This is so upsetting, I can't imagine how hard this must be.

But have I got it right that he is only alone at night? Will he not just sleep during this time if you take him for a long walk before you leave and maybe get him used to sleeping downstairs/not in your bed even on the nights you are there?

Many dogs sleep downstairs alone all night so if he got used to this it wouldn't be so different if you were out.

[AvocadosBeforeMortgages]

My heart breaks for you

I'm so sorry that life has dealt you this hand, but all I can say is that you clearly love him so much and are being incredibly selfless by rehoming him.

Keep in touch with his adopters if you can; perhaps you could send him a Christmas and birthday present?

[twinkle36]

@cricketmum84 unfortunately he will going quite far away from me and in all honestly I don't think my emotions would be able to cope visiting him but I have been reassured that photos and videos will be sent and I'll be receiving updates x

[cricketmum84]

I'm sorry this must be so hard for you.

Try to take comfort in the fact that even through your own pain you are doing your very best for him and putting his needs first.

Could you maybe ask the new family if you could go and walk him occasionally?

[twinkle36]

@pinkhousesarebest - people must think I'm a crazy women but when you are on your own with no friends or family and you have spent every minute of every day with him doing everything together it rips you apart inside not only do I see him as my best friend he's the only family I have which is why I have duty to ensure his needs and happiness is considered I will be given regular updates I can imagine how happy he will be being able to run about in the fields and always having that company there with him😔
It's going to be a very long day I've not slept in 24 hours I'm at work tonight and knowing he's not going to be there in the morning when I get home is soul destroying x