Sick to death of being guilt tripped

[Doinmummy]

Non uniform day tomorrow. Daughter 14 refuses to go as she has nothing to wear . Ffs she has hundreds of pounds worth of clothes in her room. I'm am sick to death of her making me feel guilty.

I know it may sound trivial but it's made me so upset .

[flow4]

^^ What Maryz says!

Is she on contract or SIM? My DS had a contract (obviously in my name cos kids can;t have contracts) that meant that I could simply phone up Voda and say "Hi, can I have a temporary block on outgoing calls and texts, please?" and they would do it instantly! (That's particularly useful when they won't answer your calls: you can text and say "I have blocked your phone til you answer my calls" )

[Mrsjay]

I hate that she's like her father who used to manipulate me

she isnt like her dad that is unfair on her it isnt her fault saying that she does sound stroppy of course she has clothes to wear she is just being demanding dont give in send her to school with what she has why do you feel guilty when you know she has nice clothes, If you are having problems with her gettign to school contact the school and ask for help. stop feeling guilty you did nothing wrong and stop pandering to her strops

[Mrsjay]

If I took her phone she would def go for me, so will not attempt that.

If you took her phone of her she would go for you, I think this is going deeper than just stropping you seem scared of her ? do you have any other support in the house or are you the only adult, I do think the way she is behaving because she knows she can, take her sim and take her wrath I understand it must be difficult but I do think you need some support and help with her she is ruling you, ignore the strops though just dont listen to them

[post]

Well, she can't actually MAKE you feel guilty. She can be unhappy, she can say it's your fault, but you feeling guilty is going to be about your own 'stuff'. Why do you feel guilty? That's what's going to be worth working on, I think.

Completely agree with the poster who said she does it because she can: she does it because it works at least some of the time, and every time you let it work you're training her to do it again. It doesn't mean you need to get angry with her, just don't play along, practice seeing her strop and feeling ok about it, maybe?

[Doinmummy]

mrsjay her father was abusive to me and daughter has been too. She was 9 months old when he left so never witnessed the violence so I don't know if it runs in the genes. I am scared that she will kick off.

Post good advice re feeling guilty. I am trying to just switch off. I did quite well this morning. I just got up, got ready and left for work. I left daughter to her own devices and she did go to school.

The trouble is I can now hardly speak to her at all. I feel as if I am shutting down ( if that makes sense).

[Mrsjay]

her father was abusive to me and daughter has been too. She was 9 months old when he left so never witnessed the violence so I don't know if it runs in the genes. I am scared that she will kick off.

poor you has she always been like this do you have any other support you cant let her rule your life like this she is a child, look on parentline plus webside for some support go to school tell them what is happening, you are not doing you or her any favours walking around on eggshells like this, I am not sure of genetics but I do think you need help,

[strumpetpumpkin]

tell her that if she takes a day off for something as pathetic as that, and if she continues to throw ridiculous strops, then shes going to be very sorry on christmas morning. To sort herself out and that you wont be discussing it any further

[Doinmummy]

I do need help Mrsjay . Have tried CAHMS but we don't fit their criteria. I'm waiting for counselling for myself.

My fear is that one day I will lose it and end up hurting her.

[Mrsjay]

Have you spoken to the school for any advice why dont you fit the criteria for cahms ? I would google 'help with teens your area and see what there is out there' we have local things barnados runs a support service

must be so stressful

[flow4]

Oh Doin, you ignored her and she went to school - you didn't just do "quite well": you did great! WELL DONE !!

I know exactly what you mean about feeling like you are 'shutting down'. Six months ago, I couldn't imagine forgiving my DS or loving him - let alone liking him - ever again. I think what happens is that you have to distance yourself emotionally to survive all the stress; and when you detach from the bad stuff, unfortunately you inevitably detach from the good stuff too. :(

The good news is, that sense of being 'shut down' seems to be receding now: it has been over 2 months since he did anything truly awful, and as the memories of the anger and hurt and betrayal get more distant, there seems to be a bit more room for some positive feelings. :)

BTW, do not do anything that you think will result in your DD being violent towards you. Your safety is far more important than her phone. NO parent who has ever experienced violent aggression from their child will EVER advise you just 'take it'. And (as a few of us have said already) if she is violent, call 999. You have the right to be and feel safe.

But... I'm really chuffed for you about this morning! :) Onwards and upwards!

[Doinmummy]

Thank you flow I have called the police before. They were great. She seems to have no fear though. I have spoken to the school but as she behaves at school they said there's not much they can do.

[flow4]

I know you kind of hope they'll be frightened into behaving when you call the police (or is that just me?! ) but actually, you're calling the police for you - because you feel unsafe and you need back up. :(

You can't control her behaviour and reactions, but you can control yours.

(I think I might get that printed on t-shirts! )