I wasnt always this OK. This has taken me a LOT of work to get to this stage, believe me. This time last year I was laid up on the sofa wishing I was dead. I had been in a depression for years, barely functioning , work and bed and the bare minimum in between . Then I had a fall and was in complete agony for months ( still have some pain but not constant ), I never thought I was ever going to drive or work again
It was actually finding something to wear to a physio appointment that made me see how I had let myself go, Im just over 5ft so the 3 stone weight gain was huge on me . It was seeing myself in a full size mirror that got me in to SW. The rest has followed. I needed to exercise, so I started walking, just a half a mile was enough at the start, now 5k a day at least, plus I now work PT as a waitress so Im easily getting 8 miles a day in. With the exercise and the weight loss came confidence. I came off my anti depressants late last summer and Im doing great
I so get being everything for everyone, been there, have the tee shirt, but I dunno, perhaps cos Im post menopause now I really have run out of fucks and Ive claimed some me time and thats SW, Park run, my walks, and out to visit friends and it really helps. Small little things for most, but as someone who was always last on the pecking list, its big changes for me. I now say no if something doesn't suit me. For so long I hid away in the house so it became second nature to be the one everything fell to and of course I felt like I was
This sounds really really stupid but I bought a hand bag this week, just a cheap canvas one from Amazon. I haven't used a handbag for years. Anything I carried I shoved into my coat pockets, and this summer Im not needing to hide in a coat or jacket, Im going to walk down the road in summer clothes same as everyone else and its those wins that keep me focussed on where I want to be, and that is as fit and healthy as I possibly can be. So Ive stopped stressing the small stuff. Sure Im not perfect, a work in progress , I slip up now and then but life isnt about perfection, its about being and doing the best you can