Apologies in advance for a very long post but I hope that by giving some background someone might be able to help me.
I have never discussed my situation with anyone-friends or family-partly out of loyalty to my husband and partly out of embarrassment.
We have been together for nearly 30 years and have two sons aged 16 and 9. Much to my sadness we have never had what I would consider a proper family life. My husband has refused for the past decade to go on any form of family holiday and we haven't had a family day trip in all that time. This is not because of lack of money but because he feels the boys are too badly behaved and he doesn't want anything to do with them.He says he wishes we had never had children although at the time it was a joint decision. When I was pregnant the first time he was fine for the first four months and the announced he had changed his mind. He offered me no support at all and spent the pregnancy planning his escape route. In the event he stayed and we were happy enough after 5 years to try for another baby
The boys behaviour is fine. They aren't angels but they are good company and generally cooperatve. Other people seem happy to be in their company I now go on holidays and outings (UK short breaks not the Maldives)with other mums and our teenager is a great help.
My husband has suffered from depression over the years but has refused to seek treatment. Eventually last year he was prescribed anti anxiety drugs and he took early retirement from work (another major source of stress)He has outside interests (not lap dancing clubs thankfully but badminton and a pub quiz.These are sacrosanct and cannot be missed.)At the mpment he is spending half the week at our seaside caravan and coming home to go out in the evenings.
Of late the situation has deteriorated further and my husband barely talks to our teenager. Days go by without him saying a word to him. He has stopped having any involvement with the younger boy-no parents'nights,sports days etc.Our older boy is now acting as a dad substitute supervising homework and packed lunches.
Having thought I had come to terms with our situation I now find myself becoming saddened and resentful.The financial burden for the boys also falls on me. My husband has never bought a pair of shoes or a birthday present.
Generally I am quite an optimistic person and try to concentrate on the good things in my life. Lately (and I am pre menopausal)I am weepy and despairing.
The boys do not know explicitly how their father feels although the older one is aware that his dad is unusual. The younger one cleaves to me because he has experienced more recent rejection.
Anyway I am writing to ask if anyone has any experience of this type of situation and any ideas on how to cope.
Thanks for reading this far. Sorry to cast a dampener on Father's Day.
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Uninvolved Dad-can you help me
teenmum · 15/06/2008 19:35
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