@Toastandcrumpets
I’m not refusing to say - I’m busy! I haven’t got time to type out everything. I just mean things like ‘ooh you’re eating / ooh / OOOOOH’ (stupid face)
Could he be feeling threatened by your weightloss at all? So doing things like that are designed to make you feel like giving up and that it's all pointless?
The most manipulative man I ever met was all jokes and silly noises and 'Oooh, aren't so naughty, I'm telling the kids you're eating!' and deliberately increasing the amount and calorie content of foods the moment I tried to improve my health. He was also almost constantly in my face for attention, probably because he knew that if I stopped and thought about things for a few minutes, I'd realise what an utter shit he was and dump his arse. He didn't want me out of the house unsupervised, he didn't want me looking nice, he didn't want me doing anything that wasn't directly under his control at all times.
Unfortunately for him, I eventually came to the realisation that I overate for a number of reasons;
- Because my childhood was filled with anxiety and judgement over food/being told I was fat and greedy and that would never change.
- Because my childhood food was crap so I went off the rails once I could have food that tasted good.
- Because I'd spent a period so skint that I didn't know when I'd get to eat again, so unconsciously built up a reserve in case that happened in the future.
- Because I had been in a violent relationship where it made sense to be too big for him to be able to pick me up and he'd always said that I might as well not bother because I wasn't strong enough to 'do it properly' (ie starve myself) and I'd look shit if I did it in any case.
- Because I was so stressed by the constant manipulation and whining and control - which extended to deliberately disturbing my sleep in case I was dreaming about someone else - that I was using food to literally swallow back an overwhelming desire to scream at him to get the fuck out of my home and let me have a moment's peace.
Got rid of the limpet eventually and I lost a lot of weight without really doing much, because I didn't need it to change the way I felt or reacted anymore - and exercise isn't to lose weight for me, it's an end in itself, as it makes me feel good and happy to take time out purely for myself.
DP is completely different - and it shows in my (significantly lower and still decreasing) size.