Hi all - new user here. Been looking about online to try and get some help with a problem I am having and came across this site - this was actually a few weeks ago but now feeling brave enough to post.
Basically my problem is I am ruining my marriage through my behaviours. I am drinking too much, being awful to husband and generally being a PITA. My problems stem from being sexually assaulted by my mum's brother in my early teens. I told her and she basically chastised me, told me I was evil and never to say it again. Found out later after her death that she had been abused by him throughout her life.
Anyway - I've always had low self esteem which I think stems from this. If you think your mum doesn't love you - well it doesn't get much worse than that. The uncle died last yeare and lots of (bad) memories have come flooding back. I can't sleep unless I am very drunk, have been depressed and basically have been a nightmare. I've slapped my husband, thrown things at him, been horrible - and he's taken it but I know I need to get better. Can't afford counselling so I am looking for advice from people about a.) a good self help book, b). anyone with similar issues and how they dealt with it. Obviously the drinking has to stop and I am onto that - I am not physically addicted but when I drink, I drink to intentionally get to oblivison.
So first post and quite depressing really - but on the plus side, I am acknowleding my problems and looking for help. Thanks
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saltandvinegarcrisps1 · 06/11/2016 13:14
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