My two and a half relationship is coming to an end even though we don't want it to desperately, its circumstantial. There's a lot of backstory but the situation right now is she's away on a planned visit to her relatives (all cool, oh and we're a lesbian couple). She left today for a 3 week trip and I have to move back for my final year of uni in September at the latest. But the realization of not being with her has broken me and I cannot stop crying, haven't eaten, constantly panicked about the future and on top of it all I have 2 assignments to be handed in next week (missed them due to mitigating circs). I just cannot cope right now, the heartache is over-whelming, I keep thinking about all the memories we shared, how I have never been totally myself apart from with her. I feel totally hopeless.
We have talked about trying to carry on our relationship once I return to the UK. However my problem now is how can I focus on my work? And do I stay here until she comes back and spend a couple of weeks together (over my birthday), or do I leave before she comes back as the pain of the last days and her/me leaving is too intense. My mind is muddled and I'm in tears again. It would be sooo much easier if we wanted to split up, but we don't, mainly because she's in debt and paying it off with her job here.
How can I cope? In this situation what do you think by experience we should do, fight/or give up?
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This heartache is too much
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BrightonRocks89 · 05/08/2015 20:12
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