After saying that M doesn?t really wake in night he woke up on Thursday at 4am and was crying on and off for a good half an hour. I went and got him and brought him into our bed and he was fine (took him half an hour to get to sleep but he wasn?t ?properly? awake so wasn?t trying to sit up, though he was babbling a bit). Maybe he had a bad dream? He?s definitely teething ? has more teeth coming through. The bottom ones between his first molar and the other canines. His antibiotics seem to be doing their work though. He?s eating again normally and coughing less.
Tally M would play with the remote all day given the chance (he always turns the channel over if I leave it lying around). Oh, and I WISH I was off bulk buying pee tests! We?re going to talk about it again in a few months.
Can I ask a stupid question re: swimming. Do you just use a swim nappy, or a swim nappy plus costume, or a costume that doesn?t need a swim nappy I have only taken M swimming once
Climbing M starts saying ?hello? every time I put my laptop on because he expects to be see my mum on skype!
I still feel rubbish Have had a really nasty cold/flu virus all week. My sinus?s are still blocked and am dispensing lovely green goo in the morning (sorry TMI). My throat is still swollen and sore. Cannot believe that has been my whole half term. I have so much work to do for school and rely on half term to be able to catch up and also recharge my batteries and am in a worse state than I was at the beginning of the holiday (sorry for repeating myself ? sure I moaned about this the other day). I haven?t been able to any schoolwork or anything in the house, or even anything for myself (desperately in need of a haircut!).
Had a total meltdown yesterday and Thursday ? couldn?t cope with M, fed up of being physically ill and emotionally just not dealing with anything. DH calmed me down when he got back from work yesterday. I was so distraught that I started telling myself that I really should go to my GP about anxiety, then realized I had a similar meltdown exactly a month ago ? the day before my period was due.
Starting to wonder if my pill is not ?working? for me emotionally. I had really bad PMT the first year I moved to Holland (I was like clockwork ? 1 week before my period I would be in floods of tears) which I had never experienced before. It petered out, so I think it was linked to the anxiety of moving to a new country and having to build a new life. Have been on the same pill since I was 19 and have always been fine for it (it?s supposed to help my skin as well, which it does if my ttc skin was anything to go by).
So, not sure if it?s my pill causing this or the stress and anxiety with work/DH that?s being amplified by my hormones (and it?s winter, I bloody hate winter).
Sorry for thread derail. Just trying to sort out my thoughts in my head. DH said I shouldn?t go to work next work, but I will only slip further and further behind if I stay at home doing nothing. That just makes me feel more anxious, more under pressure.
Not all doom and gloom though. We got the ball rolling for our trip to NZ this year by going to travel agents. Normally we would just book everything separately ourselves and leave most of the accommodation until we got there, but can?t imagine doing that with M. Would rather have a clearer itinerary and be able to enjoy it than wondering where we?re going to sleep the next night. It?s the same travel agent DH used to book his trip to meet me