I have been avoiding this place for the last couple of weeks because I am starting to think that I am a really awful mother.
I have been struggling with anxiety. It's a problem I have had before (was treated for depression and anxiety a few years back successfully). As a way of coping with this (I am guessing this is why it has happened anyway) I have been slipping into some bad negative coping mechanisms in relation to my eating.
My Dr picked up on it and asked me to put on a bit of weight and I took the risk and told her about my difficult relationship with food. She initially said that she would get me some help but at our next appointment backtracked and said that there was no help for me as I am not really a serious case.
I feel quite distressed at the moment and think about my eating all the time. My poor baby who is 8 months old deserves better than this. I don't want him growing up in a house where food is an issue like I did - my mother was anorexic and it was very difficult to be around. My husband is fed up of me. I organise my week around when I can get to the gym and my boy goes in the creche. He enjoys it but I still feel guilty. Often I won't go to things because I am worried that their will be food their that I will eat or I don't invite people round because I don't want to bring biscuits into the house.
I just feel awful and I really despise myself right now. I have so much to be thankful for - my boy is a honey and my husband is lovely. They don't deserve what I am putting them through. I honestly don't know what to do with myself.
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I don't think I am fit to be a mother
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Stefka · 30/06/2008 12:13
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