I’m an autistic woman in my mid 40s, with a family. But I struggle to meet my own internal demands to look after myself. For example - I want to exercise. I know it makes me feel good. But I can’t. I won’t let myself. I want to go to the beach. But I won’t let myself.
It’s as if I’m always avoiding the demands I make of myself, even though they are things I want to do!
Simple things like drinking coffee even though I want water - because I have always had coffee at that particular time of day. Or sitting in my bedroom at a weekend until 10 am, even though I want to be outside.
Demands from others I have an easier time of meeting. But even then, there comes a point where I will just say no, and then hide away.
I spend a LOT of time procrastinating. On my phone. I feel frozen.
Please can anyone relate?
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