Im so sorry for your loss.
I found out 12 days ago that my baby haddied (17 weeks pregnant). And I had to go into hospital last week to be induced and deliver the baby.
The process sounds like the cruelest thing in the world but the emotional pain is by far the worst. In my case the contractions weren't that painful, like fairly strong menstrual cramps. Im not sirr if it was any easier because ive had two children already. The hospital were
very supportive in talking me through
what would happen, offering morphine. They also treated me and my baby, a boy, with such dignity and respect. I truly hope you have a good team looking after you.
The process was very calm and controlled. Had first pill to start the placenta shutting down on the Friday and then was admitted in the Saturday to deliver. Had pessary at 10am on Sat followed by oral tablets at 13.00 and 16.00. My son was delivered at 16.30.
I was horrified initially at having to deliver baby and really wanted to be put under but now I am glad I did it this way as it seems a more dignified way of getting
baby out. To me, it was the way he was supposed to arrive, just sadly without the happy ending id hoped for. I have footprints and handprints of his that I look at every day.
Its not been two weeks for me yet and i
m still crying every day. I cant see it getting easier any time soon.
Im truly sorry this has happened to you too.
I wish you all the best for this week and the future.