Hey there.
I have 3 kids from a precious hetero relationship. I have been with my lesbian partner for about 4 years now. Our relationship is really fantastic, we communicate well, sort out disagreements easily and quickly and love each other so much. We have the same perspectives on life and want to grow old together.
At some point we discussed having kids and I was happy to have one together, which her carrying the child. Now I have made a proper 180o turn and I don't want to have an other kid.
Of course, my partner is very upset and doesn't understand why I changed my mind so suddenly and why I feel so strongly against it now. I don't completely understand either tbh. But that's how it feels now. I have a lot of childhood trauma and pregnancies and births of my kids were pretty bad. I feel like I am allowed to change my mind, it's such a big deal, and I also understand why she is so upset. She thought we were having a kid together and got into that mindset. We have appts with fertility clinics coming up.
I feel like the relationship has been damaged beyond repair. I mean, either she has the baby and it makes me unhappy, she doesn't have the baby and she is unhappy, we split up and we are both unhappy and my kids suffer in the process too, they are very attached to her.
No judgement here, no criticism, kind words only please.
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pmcknz · 05/05/2022 14:16
BattenburgDonkey · 05/05/2022 14:21
I haven’t been in this situation, but you need to break up in my opinion. You’ve had your kids, and you promised her the same, she deserves to go off and have her own children, she shouldn’t consider your children in this decision as this isn’t her fault. She will most likely always resent you if you stayed together and she couldn’t have a baby. Why does you having bad pregnancies mean she can’t be pregnant? That must seem very unfair to her. It’s a total minefield I understand that, but her experience will probably be totally different to yours. I hope things somehow work out for you both OP
allalila · 05/05/2022 14:30
Would it be an option to have counselling together about it? To work through both of your feelings properly? Imo she is understandably upset at your '180° u turn and can't even quite say why'
HappyCup · 05/05/2022 14:26
If you don’t want another child that’s absolutely fine, you’re allowed to feel that way.
But can see why she’s so upset. You told her you were on the same page about wanting children and so you both invested in the relationship. And now all of a sudden you want something completely different that would have potentially been a deal breaker originally. I’d be upset and angry at you too.
pmcknz · 05/05/2022 14:36
I know she is understandingly upset about it and I respect that.
I don't know about counselling.
allalila · 05/05/2022 14:30
Would it be an option to have counselling together about it? To work through both of your feelings properly? Imo she is understandably upset at your '180° u turn and can't even quite say why'
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