I never thought it would be this hard.
I only wanted a baby.
I never thought it would take years.
I never thought it could destroy me.
I never thought I'd watch my husband play with our friends children and feel heart crushing guilt.
I never thought I'd wish he'd never met me.
I never thought my body could let me down like this.
I never thought I'd become a recluse.
I never thought I'd wince at the sight of a pram.
I never thought I'd resent my friends for falling pregnant effortlessly, numerous times.
I never thought I'd be in this place years down the line.
I never thought I'd panic at pregnancy announcements on Facebook.
I never thought I'd avoid friends for fear of 'good news'.
I never thought I'd have to put on a brave face so often.
I never thought you could hide a broken heart so well.
I never thought I'd wish I was somebody else.
I never thought I wouldn't be happy for people expecting a baby.
I never thought I could be so two faced.
I never thought I'd have to lie so much about how I am.
I never thought I could want something so much.
I never thought I'd have to resort to fertility drugs.
I never thought I would stare into my future and see nothing but loneliness and heartbreak.
I never thought I would be so scared.
I never thought I'd feel so unhappy.
I never thought it could happen to me.
I never thought I would grieve for someone that never existed.
I never thought I would hate myself and my life.
I only want a baby. I didn't know it would be this hard, I never thought.
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I never thought it would be this hard
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NeverThought · 05/06/2015 15:38
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