Hi. My name is Chris. I have suffered with anxiety and panic about my floaters to the point of quiting my driving job because I believed I was distracted to the point of being a danger to myself and others. Fortunately what seemed like an unfortunate turn of events has lead me back to teaching music which makes me much happier and fulfilled in life
I too am currently practicing CBT and one thing they suggest is to consider the things you would tell a friend or loved one with the same problem and on that basis I feel compelled to share my thoughts with you.
Looking for floaters is to me practicing an ineffective form of control. The more I do it, the more powerless I feel
Floaters are not the first body or health concern I have experienced in my life. I am 31 now and I have experienced these kinds of issues since I was 12. I have however noticed that there are common themes in the feelings that have accompanied these issues despite their many different avenues of expression like floaters, believing myself to be disfigured, knee bouncing, Going bald
It's as if the thought that I have control to make it better 'and' worse means I can only make it worse
Many things within nature occur that impede our vision, Fog, Night time, People with big hair in the row in front at the cinema. Floaters are a part of the natural ageing process of the eyes. When you are in the womb they are like jelly to protect their structure but as this isn't necessary beyond that, they begin to liquify. It may be interesting to see how Jelly behaves when liquifying outside of the body. Im sure there would be many lines and miniature bubbles
I spare a thought for your family, I'm sure they love you and quite likely miss you. Fear is a blinding emotion. When someone we love dies, we will often try to recapture they joy they brought us even when it is accompanied by pain. Contact of any kind with your family is precious. Even in touch, smell and sound
Many times in life, emotion offers us the greatest problem, and lesson. When we die, The fear of the unknown presents the greatest problem in an event which is as natural as good to sleep or going to the toilet. If we lived our whole lives with no frame of reference for sleep or going to the toilet, those would probably be unsettling too
Confidence building cannot be underestimated. Setting goals and being specifically aware of what you want with 'effective' strategies to accomplish them. When something is beyond your control, you naturally move toward a place of acceptance. Your resistance will only slow this process, you will recover as most children recover from the reluctance to go to sleep at bed time
much love and peace
Chris