Not sure this is an AIBU at all but need to vent .
I’m the most laid back person I know in the world. I have the patient of a Saint and go out of my way to treat everyone as nicely as I can but I’m starting to feel like I may finally be losing my shit!
I'm a single mum with 3 DD’s, although I have been in a relationship now for 3.5 years with my boyfriend. I work full time as a secondary school teacher and have just been promoted this year to head of department.
My life just seems to be one long slog at the minute. Work is hard! I stay every day til at least 4.30, then straight home to make dinner, sort the girls out, get stuff ready for the next day etc. And before I know it, it’s bedtime and I’m too exhausted to sleep and getting between 5-6 hours of sleep a night. Also, with work, I’m expected to be doing extra duties as HOD, I have 2 ECT’s in my department of 4, one of which I’m mentoring so that’s a lot of extra work and to top it all off, I keep getting put on to cover other lessons and so losing my free periods. This means I’m having to catch up on admin and lesson making at the weekends- I usually do at least 6-8 hours every Saturday. And all this and I still can’t afford more than just the basic bills!
I try to be a good mum but my kids seem to constantly hate me for not being there for them, hate me for not being able to buy them nice things or send them to the same clubs their friends go to etc etc.
And on top of all this, my relationship is stuck and seems to be going nowhere. My boyfriend has his own successful business which means he’s pretty much semi-retired and earns about 10 times more than me. He has loads of nice things and I always feel like a scruffy loser when we go anywhere together. I’m not jealous- he worked hard for it but it just makes me so sad that I’m also working so hard and I’m still sinking!
I just feel so rubbish about everything but not sure how to change any of it. I’ve really had enough. I’ve never shouted or screamed at anyone in my life but I feel like if I get put on cover once more or get an unexpected bill, I might just blow my top!
Anyway, rant over. Thanks for reading if you got to the end!
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AIBU to just not know how to carry on with this!!
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Blownupblowndown · 03/10/2022 22:14
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