Posting for traffic really.
I have a beautiful 14 week old DD. And she is currently the only good thing in my life.
I had a job that whilst wasn't perfect, was ok pay, and I got on with my colleagues.
A couple of months ago whilst on mat leave, I had a call from my manager to get on a conference call. My whole team job role was being reduced from account manager to customer care, for slightly less pay. I had the choice to return to this reduced role or take redundancy. I chose the latter.
I was convinced I would be ok. My dh told me it would be fine.
I have now had 2 interviews, for jobs I didn't get. I had spoken to an agency about a job, rewrote a version of my cv for the client, just to be told the client had seen it, and didn't even want to see me. Not to count all the applications I've sent out where I haven't even had a generic reply.
I now wonder wether I should of just stayed in my lane, and taken the reduced role.
I received a redundancy packet some of which my dh promptly borrowed to get a new car. He's paying me back, but now the sceptic in me wonders wether this was why he was so keen for me to take it. I've spoken to him about how lost and rudderless I feel, he was supportive at first, but just now when I spoke to him on the phone, when I spoke about sad I was feeling he said "I'm not listening to this depressive shit" and hung up on me.
I'm not sure if this is PND or just 'regular' depression. I feel angry at my old company for putting me in this position, which I know is pointless and I waste of energy - but I can't help it.
Has anyone else been through something similar? There must be light at the end of the tunnel?
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To wonder if things will ever get better.
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karmacoma1 · 23/06/2017 11:22
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