What a quandary!
You obviously haven't been able to tell your friend that you are no longer attending because deep down you DO want to go, its just the circumstances that are making it difficult.
PPs are correct though, it is better to let your friend know asap that you can no longer attend.
Just explain it as you have here:
You really want to go
You have been racking your brain, trying to find a way to make it work (this is why you haven't said anything sooner)
Initially, you convinced yourself it was do-able but things have changed:
- you are now further away
- Parents initially thought they would cope with kids in hotel if they came to meet you, but now that they have thought about it, they aren't sure they WOULD manage both of them, on their own, in a strange environment (this is perfectly understandable)
- Ydeclinef to still be Breastfeeding and worry how to deal with that, given your parents would then be at home with baby, meaning it would be for a longer period than if they were with you and you were just out for the day/evening of the wedding.
- DH's work won't guarantee time off and you don't want to say definitely yes, or maybe, then have to decline at the last minute; if he can't get holidays.
I
wouldn't mention the £cost, TBH you have enough acceptable reasons for not attending; and bringing up the cost may be the one thing that makes an already stressed out bride a bit miffed, especially when she did it when you married.
I am NOT saying that is a justified reaction, just that it can sometimes happen
Feel free to keep saying how much you really wanted to go/ don't want to miss it/ feel like you are letting her down, but just feel you are better to decline before it gets any nearer (it will help smooth any ruffled feathers)
Could you arrange a trip to visit them later, and celebrate with them then? Take the kids and make a holiday out it. Planning it now would show her that you DO want to see her and spend time with them.
Most of these suggestions have probably been made in the time its taken me to type this on my phone...lol....
I do hope you find a workable solution.
You wouldnt neccessarily have to give up breastfeeding. I left weeks old DS overnight with my MIL as my mum, DH & I were going to the wedding of a very dear family friend (her mum & mine met in the maternity ward, we grew up together, went to school & activities, sleepovers together etc) . I breastfed for just over a year but was very lucky in that he would take a bottle of expressed milk from someone else if I wasn't there.
If you eventually decide to go, would building up a stockpile of expressed milk that your mum could give baby, be a possibility? I used to take a small manual pump with me overnight and express when necessary (kept refrigerated/frozen for future use, or discarded if I had had a small refreshment)