EMS23 - you are right, lots of what you say rings true to me as well with our situation!
I do seem to bang on on here about how well my ex and I get on, but it hasn't always been like that and it does have it's ups and downs at times.
I especially understand where you say you feel you have been painted in a bad light and that your dh feels more comfortable with you and his ex being kept distant from eachother. My ex is like that too. And while I can understand why he feels a bit wierd about us having a friendship, at the same time, I can't really see what harm it would do. It's like he thinks we would start chatting about what he's like in bed or something! On the few ocassions we have met, we both seem to have gone out of our way to be overly nice and respectful to the other.
I know that especially in the beginning of their relationship, by which time I was living with my dh, he definately painted me in a bad light to her. I don't know exactly what he said, but I feel like I was made out to be some kind of super money grabbing bitch to her, which isn't the case at all. It shows how lovely and understanding she is really to have listened to that and still not have anything against me.
It's lovely that you still pay for your dss, even though your dh isn't working atm. I honestly don't know what we would do in that situation as my ex and his dp aren't married, and she is a SAHM anyway. I suppose we would just struggle, because I do genuinely need the money that I get from my ex. You are right that there is a big distinction between the money being for me or for my dc, and I know for a while my ex found that difficult to get his head round. Especially when my dh and I first got together, as he treated me to a lot (as men in new relationships do) and I'm sure it was hard for my ex to give me money then know that I was going for an expensive day or night out. Wherever possible, I have tried to get my ex to pay for things directly so they can see that I'm not just spending his money on luxuries, so he gives me cheques made payable to the swimming lesson people or whatever.
I was very lucky to know what kind of father he would be to our child before we even had her
This is another really nice thing to read, I hope my dp's partner was able to feel like that too, especially as I know she was let down so badly by the Father of her other children.
It's very sad when there are problems within these kinds of relationships, because I'm sure what we ultimately all want is the best for our children. I would always do anything I could for my ex's child and step children, we are all part of the same famiy after all. And they are important to me - they are my childrens half sister and step siblings.