Hi everyone - sorry if this ends up being a long post - looking for a handhold more than anything I think as not sure there is a 'solution'
DS is nearly 5, adopted at 13ms. Since age 3, we have had big issues with dysregulation and aggression - they peaked v badly around a year ago but with a lot of v timely support from Adoption UK, we have learnt some game changing strategies, understand so much more about impact of trauma on his behaviour and 80% of the time although parenting him is v hard work, are able to be preventative enough that it's rare we have the type of extreme meltdowns we used to at home
However DS has never been one to 'mask' in settings - if anything at nursery/school his behaviour is much more challenging. We had a huge rollercoaster with what turned out to be a v poorly matched nursery to him and I kicked myself for not withdrawing him sooner as I think their lack of understanding of his issues led to him essentially being labelled as a naughty child in the class and has caused ongoing anxiety issues for him. It was only very close to the end (last 3ms of a 2.5 year run) that they actually took me up on my multiple offers to discuss his needs/background and finally involved who turned out to be a good SENCO who went on Trauma Perceptive Practice training. This made a big difference but sadly was somewhat too little too late.
DS struggles with getting over attached to point of obsession with adults and this was the case with his 1 good keyworker. Whilst it gave him a sense of security it also triggered anxiety when he became aware change was coming and about 3ws before the end of nursery we had a serious incident where he was a risk to other children, went into major meltdown hurting teachers and throwing chairs across room (as well as some v violent aggressive language). My heart broke for him as he had to be restrained in the moment to keep others safe, and he had done SO well for so long. I think it was the culmination of everything coming to the fore
We are currently in limbo but have had our 2nd attempt at a CAMHS self-referral accepted with an upcoming appt where we hope to begin a journey to discover whether there is something like attachment disorder, developmental trauma, and/or (we suspect) ADHD (although frankly this is the least of our worries). He has recently started reception and prior, we met with what seemed to be a v good SENCO, had transition visits and meetings where I was able to explain more about his needs. Unfortunately because we have no concrete diagnosis, although I know how significant his issues are, I'm aware it all seems a little 'wishy washy' from the outside. Initially I was feeling v optimistic - relieved that SENCO seemed much more knowledgeable and the school seemed on board with working alongside us
Since starting I am already filled with anxiety and despondence. I am totally aware that he is responding to change and transition so at home we understand this and his behaviour has been OK with some rudeness to be expected. At school we have some strategies pre-set up such as communication book and he has some time in the sensory area. However, there have already been some situations where I have felt they have taken a v traditional stance on his behaviour and he has ended up getting the blame for a scenario I had already warned them would need close supervision
On several occasions, he has engaged in hitting with another child and has got dysregulated after over excitement/frustration (big triggers for him). I made them aware he is VERY absorbent of other childrens' energy and that it would be a bad idea to group him with other boisterous children. He seems to be spending a lot of time with a little boy who hits him a lot (not an issue in itself, I would hardly be one to judge!) but this is exacerbating his behaviour as he is responding in the moment and hitting back. We are working on his impulsivity and crucially getting him to speak to a teacher first when frustrated but a v tall order for a 5yo with his issues which is why we asked them to keep a close eye on this. Last week an LSA (who I'm sorry to say was an older lady and seemed v traditional school teacher-esque) explained he had been 'sent' to a Yr 2 teacher with a friend as they had been hitting each other after a squabble and that he 'must' report any frustration to her in the dinner hall. I froze in the moment when receiving the feedback but on reflection I am struggling to see what being 'sent' to her was supposed to do - what was the end goal? I can't help thinking this was a v traditional shame-based approach to make him intimidated because she is an teacher of older children (or something?!). He also came back from school quite upset Friday (rare for him to be sensitive about these things) stating that a Yr 6 girl had shoved him to the floor and pulled his tie round his neck. He is not one to get too upset but this seemed to have upset him. When school phoned about something else and it was mentioned their response is that it had been 'dealt with' but that it may have been 'a response to a shove from him' - although they can't know as they didn't see. Why they would assume a 5yo may have been at fault over a yr 6 girl is v bizarre.
They are implementing some strategies in the room and their language is marginally more tolerant than that of nusery's but I am already sensing they have high expectations of behaviour and are not adapting traditional techniques to his needs. This is in context of me having pre-briefed them on what does/doesn't work, communicating in his book techniques that help, and his nursery SENCO having run a session with them. I am already getting worried we are in for (this time a v long) round 2 of him being very misunderstood. I know its v irrational at this stage but when I think medium to long term I worry about the potential for exclusion in time
I guess I just feel so deflated - and worst, anxious and a bit cross on his behalf as he has made so much progress at home and I feel like he is going to walk through life at school being viewed a certain way which has already had a major impact on his self-esteem. Wanted to post this somewhere I knew others would understand. Sorry for the essay!
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teekay88 · 25/09/2023 08:47
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