hello all
some of you helped me in the past and it was much appreciated as we are in a part of the UK with not a lot of adopters/ resources and I don’t have anyone to talk to about this honestly who is an adopter or who understands it. i really value that i can ask anonymous strangers things in this board and be anonymous too.
we have been matched with a gorgeous 16 month old boy. We know this is a great privilege as there seem to be very, very few children up for adoption at the moment- are people finding that the case ?
We feel a connection with him. We are really in a bit of shock as we were approached about him as the chosen couple with no competition element if you know what i mean -and on top of that he is the first child we have looked at . We were expecting to wait a couple of years before getting anywhere but because of a quirk of specific ethnicity in my partner and my backgrounds, this child has somewhat magically (it feels) appeared. We also have no birth children so we are becoming parents and adopters at the same time which has its own fear dynamic.
We had through training begun to think well that an older child age 3 -4 would be better for us as we would have more idea of what we would be managing in terms of challenges. But this younger child is now ours to adopt- we haven’t met him yet but he has been with extremely good and loving foster carers since birth.
He is doing really well - no red flags at all so far - apart from his very small weight /height and very small head circumference at birth. he has grown well since then and caught up quite a bit - but his height is still v low for his age which is a particular red flag. My partner has a science background and all the myriad data we have checked says that indicators of fetal alcohol syndrome are
1. confirmed alcohol exposure ( birth mother has confirmed)
2. microcephalic head at birth (confirmed- now caught up)
3. growth deficit under 10 percentile (confirmed -weight getting a lot better- height still low)
4. the distinctive facial presentation (only present in 10% of cases)
he is too young to be assessed for neurocognitive things of course and the mother and father both have been honest and open about polydrug use and the mental health issues in family etc. We understand all these other risks and we can handle them and how they develop- but I have hit a wall of fear with possible FASD.
any advice/ perspectives very appreciated as these are the issues -
a) there has been no mention of or checks for FASD despite these facts - there has not been any measuring of facial features for example ( and this can pick up subtle but correct FAS/D markers that aren’t apparent without measuring ). The adoption medical officer has written a report that says he is doing well and no issues but in that no mention of FAS/D at all. This really disturbs me -If amateurs like myself can see this child is vulnerable and therefore needs to be monitored to insure early interventions from the medical reports why has this child not been assessed for this ? We have to meet the medical officer in the future and I will be asking this and insisting on a FAS/D assessment -has anyone done this ?
b) i read that alcohol use is in the vast majority of modern adoption profiles -except perhaps for those with learning disabilities. Is that right ? It’s so hard when you meet adoptive parents as you can’t ask but I feel like I am the only person who is struggling with this and everyone else has been able to find a child that has a lower risk profile in some way -or is such a saintly person ( i mean this sincerely) that they can take on this huge responsibility without my qualms/fear
c) The outcomes that i read for FAS/D seem so bleak and scare me as because it is a form of brain damage -it seems to be that the possible interventions can make little difference. We have been very open to lots of risk factors in our assessment but FAS/D is the one we said no to. We have very realistic dreams for a child but we want to have ‘enough’ hope (in the different way you can as an adoptive parent ) that the child can live an independent life, however modest. We have always felt FASD is the biggest worry on that score and that is due to the fact that we don’t knowingly know any kids that do have it. There may be kids/adults around that have it and are doing well and are able to grow up and live independently with/without support - but i don’t know myself of any examples.
Therefore I am having real trouble surmounting my fear and I don’t know if this is an indication that we should not proceed with this match.
d) A big part of me thinks that this is the reality of adoption and if I back out of this, what lesser risk profile exists that would get me over the line ?
I don’t need to say that I’m writing this as I am tortured -the fear of going through with it is matched by the fear of not going through with it.
thanks for reading - i know it’s a long train of thought.
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