Hi there. Am not sure what I am looking for from this post other than maybe a bit of a hand hold and to hear others experience of this
I think in my heart of hearts I always have wanted to adopt again after the first time, even though I also simultaneously always knew that it's often a complicated decision for many and have heard many adopters reflect on needing to change their priorities after welcoming their first child home and coming to terms with their needs . However I think the actual realisation has hit me 3 years on from adopting my little boy that it just may not be possible for us
I adopted my DS at 13m and initially we had no concerns regarding additional needs. He has continued to meet developmental milestones but in the last year it has become apparent that some initial concerns we had about behaviour and emotional regulation are founded and these have significantly affected our experience of parenting and capacity to take on any more stressors
He is a lovely boy - affectionate, great social skills and emotional intelligence, clever, thoughtful and kind when he is at his best. However he also greatly struggles with regulating his temper, physical aggression particularly towards me, separation anxiety, and managing even minor frustration. In the last six months I have had to fight hard to advocate for him in his nursery setting to meet his needs (that in itself could be a post); access support at my rock bottom through Adoption UK (Which has been a godsend); completely reacquaint myself with therapeutic parenting and intensively apply it as much as I can manage (although admittedly I am exhausted and burnt out from the effort of this against my own mental he as th struggles); accept co-sleeping every night resulting in about only 2 hours of me time for my partner and I per day (including time to eat dinner); give up work temporarily to be home with him to help him through a particularly rough patch; and accept an incredibly intense need to be with me and touch me at all times (he is incredibly suffocating with his need for almost constant physical touch to feel reassured). I don't say this to be woe is me but just to explain where we're at
He's 4.5 now and I know that nothing lasts forever. I also always planned on there being a reasonable age gap between him and any sibling as I knew I couldn't cope with 2 very young ones at same time with all that adoption brings. But I did envision being at the point of considering it by now. The way things feel I don't see how he I or my partner would cope with a sibling (or be approved to go through process as I suspect they'd have concerns about how he'd adapt)
I'm trying not to see things as a finite decision but more and more the possibility of adding a sibling feels an out of reach dream. Is there anyone else out there who has struggled with these feelings? If so I would love to know what helped your decision making and how you reconciled this with your feelings
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teekay88 · 13/03/2023 16:39
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