I'm 40. I'm struggling a little bit with how I feel about getting older.
I have noticed myself become invisible - I don't mean to men, but to everyone. At work recently one of the (younger) women I work with threw a big party and invited everyone in the department but me. It wasn't because they don't know me or like me, and it wasn't in secret - they cheerfully told me stories about the hilarious goings on at the party. It just genuinely didn't occur to them to invite me. I feel like they don't see me as the same species as them.
I am aware of my looks and mostly am at peace with looking older, though I feel somehow aggrieved that it's all happening already. I was only just getting started!
I struggle to know how old I am... I know the physical number, but I look around and can't see where "my gang" is. I'm evidently not a bright young thing any more, but I'm not yet ready for gardening and bridge clubs. I know women older than me who are fabulous and clever and comfortable in their skin. When will the confidence and wisdom settle on me? I feel mousy and fading.
I recently moved to a new city and have struggled to make friends. I want to drink gin and discuss this with my old friends who I dearly miss, but I can't and skype just isn't the same.
I can't be the only woman to feel this way. In lieu of friends, are there any good books I can read to help me sort it all out in my head?
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Flamingoose · 17/02/2018 04:56
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