Morning,
I'm a regular but NC. Please don't put me if you identify me.
A friend posted a worrying message on Facebook today. She was assaulted last night and dealing with how she feels around it. I can't begin to respond clearly. I think it's because I'm so angered by it that emotion gets in my way. I've copied her message. Can someone help?
Message:
Still pondering.... four hours in.... Not been to sleep yet....
I had a situation tonight....
I had a choice....
As you know I am no fucking wallflower... why I did very little about the thing that riled me has me..... puzzled? angry?
Dunno... googling for music to numb the inner voice shit for sure....
I was sat drinking in a bar having a blast and I was being pleasant and chatting to new folks.
All good.
I got talking to a kinda hells angel Norwegian guy, Eric.... neutral stuff bands, bikes what he did for a job.... small talk.
After 5 minutes, he said he liked me...
I didn't really say anything back. If I am honest, I was thrown by the compliment. Tried to ignore it really.
I just grinned like a bloody idiot and looked away for a bit and then thought... ah surely there's nothing in it..... is there......
He made a pass (maybe?) I said no. Move on.
We ended up talking again later. More neutral stuff... travel, bands, blah.....
Then, straight up, he grabs my wrist really hard, pulls me close and whispers forcefully he wants to "lick my pussy."
Not good.
To far pal.
He won't let go.
I don't wanna cause a scene.
The primal bit of me wants to punch the fucker in the face or bollocks. I don't really care, just fucking stop.
As he's hiccuping and pissed, I pull my wrist free after 30 seconds struggle and think fuck you sunshine.
If it wasn't a public place, could I have fought him off if he wanted to take it further......?
Dunno.
That worries me.
My mind was full of feeling weak as piss and out of control of the situation. I don't like that feeling.
I said look, I am married and I am not interested. He tells me his is married too and it doesn't matter.
Well that's just great.......
Still not wanting to cause a scene... I just want a few beers and a laugh and presume he will suss he is being a tool and give up.
I turn away.... try to ignore him.... let the dust settle. No biggie. I am never ever dress girlie or try to get guys to hit on me.... so surely he will get the message?
Eric is now feeling miffed. Huffing and puffing. Staring. Drinking quickly.
He tried several attempts to grab my attention verbally, then shoved his hand high up on my middle upper thigh and tried to put is arm round me.... which meant he touched my boobs a lot. Maybe 3 times for a few seconds each time, squishing me. Proper touching - not brushing against me.
Fucking angry now.
I said "Don't Do That!!".
He said sorry - I don't think he meant it for an instant.
He suggests we should go back to his place.
Still sat there like a fucking plum, a bit stunned and putting it down to him being pissed.... me being dim for talking to strangers and trusting people until I have a reason not to, I am rudderless.
Toecracker instantly wades in seeing I am miffed and said leave off my mate pal....
TC wants security to throw the fucker out. for being a bellend.
I do too, if I am honest.
Eric gets lairy, aggressive body language, shoving TC in the back, then backs down. I want to throw a punch again because he is now being a dick to my friend as well as me.
This calm down when security come over m.
The bar staff let him stay.
I turn away and ignore Eric. Fucker.
A couple of minutes later, he reaches round me again and touches my boobs.
Fuck off pal!!!!!! Is what I am saying inside now, which turned into a fucking lame "stop" when vocalised.
Propped up on a bar stool is not the best position from which to attack.... or run away.
Toecracker tells him to wind his neck in again and go home. I am grateful for that as I am flapping like a melt inside and not sure what to do.
Outside, I'm still doing nothing really. Certainly not fighting my corner.....(WHY??!!!!)
Security tell the guy to leave.
Eric says he is gonna wait for TC and "have a real fight in the street."
I do not want that happening.... TC's my friend and he shouldn't get attacked for this....
Eric waited outside for an hour for us to leave according to security.
When we did leave he had gone, (phew) but TC and I are still grizzling.
I still can't work out why I basically did nothing apart from say No and ignore him..... FFS!!
#weakling
I keep replaying it thinking how could I have avoided the situation....
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