I hate my current shape

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and yet I go all lethargic and comfort eat-y rather than do something about it

Most of it is breastfeeding. My shape changes and I do the whole fat storing thing on my belly and thighs. I actually weigh less than I did pre-preg but my shape is just round and horrible

I saw photos of me at 18 the other day. Photos I used to hate because I "looked fat" - there was nothing of me. Why didn't I appreciate that then?!!?

My friend is willing to get me into some sort of fitness regime (she is a personal trainer), but when I am feeling this drained all the time, is there much point?

At the same time, DD2 is only 7 weeks old - it isn't surprising I am round when I haven't been not pregnant for 2 months yet but before the weight shifted I was back in my smallest jeans, so again, that is making me

I have no idea what I am posting for tbh. Just need to get it off my chest really. Might upload the "fat" pic so you can point and laugh at the stupidness of teenagerness.

[Bunnysoprano]

I hear you!! I feel exactly the same and it is as though I have a diet-death wish! Any good work I do is ruined with self-sabotage.

I am actually eating things and wondering (while I am eating it) what I am doing. I'm not even hungry!

I'm afraid I don't have any good advice but hope that someone else will come along with some.

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ooh yes, and when you're eating and wondering you still keep eating

[spookycharlotte121]

I second what bunny says. I will be reaally good and then all of a sudden have a totally stupid binge and eaat stuff whilst thinhking im not hungry.... and then go into a self rage of world hatered!!!

I too spent all of my teenage years thinking I was fat but now looking back on pictures... yes i could have done with a little more exercise but i was not fat. I wish I had realised that back then and enjoyed it.

I have no excuse to be this size (14/16... if im honest closer to 16 ) it is due to sheer lazyness.... a spell of PND and eating waaaaay too much of the wrong stuff!

SO this week I haave turned over a new leaf. Im walking the kids to nursery everydaay.... its only a 20 min walk there and back but i figured its better than nothing. Im also having an intense session with a personal trainer once a week which is really hard work but i feel amazing afterwards!
Im also trying to drink more as i can go a whole day without drinking anything..... stupid i know but its a bad bad habbit!
my final task is just to eat sensibly. I know it will work if I plan out whats going to be cooked each day etc and stick it up on the fridge.

I understand how poo you feel... when you feel all blobby etc but dont put too much pressure on yourself. you have just had a baby! Your body needs tiem to adjust.
Take everything one step at a time. Try and eat sensibly but dont deny yourself treats otherwise you will be naughty and maybe you could try going out for a walk a few times a week. The air seems lovely and clear at the moment and will do your little ones good too!

like i said dont be too harsh on yourself.... you have to remember you hve just had a baby.