Dear all,
I am getting more and more exasperated with each day and spiralling into self-loathing and need someone to help me see things straight.
Long story short, I think about food all the time. I hate the world and everyone in it because I am constantly hungry. Then I eat and hate myself because I am weak. Basically, my existence is filled with negative emotions and all because I cannot snap out of believing I am only worth as much as how slim I should be.
I am convinced my husband will cheat on me with someone thinner/prettier/younger. It's just a waiting game for me now.
I am sure people make fun of me and my weight and yet nobody would tell me I am fat. It drives me insane.
Every morning I wake up with horrible realisation that another day of hating food/being hungry/being angry us upon me. Then I remind myself that hating myself for eating or being fat is worse than going hungry and so it goes round and round..
I'm nasty to people around Me, I am nasty to myself and I don't know how to get through this. Any advice? Anyone been there and done this? I've no one to talk to about this in real life and I'm at the end of my tether now. Thank you!
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LazyArseAvocado · 11/12/2017 12:32
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