so confused

[theluckiest]

Saw pics from a wedding I went to this weekend - I thought I looked nice at the time but I am so much bigger than I thought I was Just had a big cry - DH tries to be so supportive but doesn't really get it. He cycles 10 miles a day, runs marathons & is super fit. I am relatively fit (ran a half marathon in March) but just cannot lose the weight. Nope, sadly it's not all muscle!!

I don't want to be this anymore. It's tiring. And so boring. I've had enough. I've been trying to lose weight & feeling fat for 30 years...

13st 8 and I've been this for 3 years. 5ft 5 so I know I need to lose to be healthy. I'm acutely aware of BMI and where I am. My DM is Type 2 diabetic & im terrified of that being me in a few yrs.

I actually eat very sensibly (I think) but just feel lost. In that time I've tried WW (lost a fair bit but so bloody miserable) SW (lost a few lbs, that was about it) & now have been low carbing for a month & love it. Feel much better, less bloated but haven't lost an oz. Feel good but demoralised.

Where do I go now? I'm 40 in a few weeks. It's getting harder so I feel like I need to tackle this properly now. My kindle has every plan / diet book on the market so no wonder I just feel so bloody confused!!

Am I alone? Anyone else? I feel that this is a crossroads and I need to do something to stop feeling shit about myself. It's been 25+ yrs of feeling crap (even as a teen - how I wish I could shake my 16 yr old self and tell her how gorgeous she actually was!!)

Sorry, that has all been a bit self pitying. I am a pretty feisty woman in most areas of my life. I work ridiculous hours but am pretty good at sorting things. I just can't sort myself. Where do I go now?

[delilahbucket]

Have you tried just basic calorie counting? You can see what you're really eating then. You may surprise yourself with how much you are consuming. My fitness Pal is a very good app to use.

[theluckiest]

Yup. Have used MFP on and off for about 4 years. I'm not sure if the basal rate is correct but I pretty much eat around 1300 cals per day (with the odd exception) never really going over - it seems that I am very good at maintaining!! And I do weigh portion sizes!! Although if I'm honest, since I've low carbed, I've tracked this less. One of the benefits of LC was not having to calorie count but maybe this is bollocks?!

I just need to work out how to sensibly turn this into active weight loss without cutting down into ridiculously low cal and therefore cutting off nose to spite face...