Please help

[sravani0]

Hello everyone. I'm writing this because I don't know who to share this. I was around 12 to 13 yrs old and my cousin used to molest me every time. We used to live in the same street. He used to make me play and used to take me to bakery. Everything was good. I used to call him brother. It started slowly. He used to do tickles and when i laugh he used to continue dng tickles by touching my waist and from there he slowly used to touch my breast and pinch it hardly. I was very confused and didn't know what was he doing and couldn't share this to anyone. Honestly i used to face so much pain whenever he used to do that this way. It were just growing and i used to have so much pain. I couldn't tell this coz i didn't know what was going on bcz i didn't have any knowledge about those things. By growing up i realized he used to molest me and i still couldn't share this to anyone bcz we all are a family and if my father comes to know he would kill him. Today i had to share this with my mom. My mom was so much in pain hearing all this.i stopped talking to him many years ago and recently we had a clash in the family and that guy was blackmailing me saying i had relationships and would tell my family about it. Honestly he has no idea about whats happening in my life. I yelled at him saying u used to do such things with me and now he clearly lies on my face saying he never did so. I remember this i do remember what happened with me. How can someone lie about this instead of being ashamed. This is hurting me so much

[PeninsulaPanic]

He's an abuser and a coward, @sravani0

He abused you as a child and he continues to abuse you verbally and emotionally to protect himself now. I admire your courage for opening up to your mum, I know it can't have been easy because it sounds like you've been protecting your family from the truth for years but this time you put your needs first and that is so healthy, well done

As a survivor of childhood sexual abuse you would find counselling very helpful and reassuring. Are there any counselling or psychotherapy services you can access where you are?