I had an observation yesterday. It was shit. I knew it had gone badly but had to wait until after school today to get feedback. This meant I spent all last night panicking and feeling sick.
Feedback was as I expected. I knew where I'd buggered it up. I'm normally a good teacher and they told me that this observation is not representative of me as a teacher but it's really knocked me. I know I'm a good teacher but I've found this year really tough. Constant scrutinies and pressure and I know it's making me narky with the kids at times because I'm stressed. I hate it and I'm honestly doing my best to stop. This was brought up in feedback in a supportive way but meant as a dig that I need to regain my warm caring teacher style.
Basically feedback turned into me having a bit of a melt down, them being really supportive and saying they'd noticed I'm up happy and they want to help. I'd lost confidence in myself as a teacher before this observation and being offered help just makes me feel shit. I know I need to swallow my pride and accept their help but it's hard and I don't know what they can do to help.
Sigh. I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself at the moment.
Any words of wisdom to give me a kick up the back side?
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WombatStewForTea · 19/11/2015 22:15
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