Hi everyone, Nelli here. Things have been quite calm for a while so I should have expected this. My DH and I have been trying for a baby of our own (he has one 6 yr old) for about 10 months with no success, which is hard enough in itself. Just heard yesterday that dh ex is expecting, it would have had less of an impact if I'd have been kicked in the stomach. I know it shouldn't matter to me, but I just just wanted my dh and I to have that first experience with sd, I just don't seem to measure up, feel like I can't do anything right and that someone up there really doesn't like me for some reason. I know I am lucky, I have a good life and I am grateful but I can't feeling so gutted about this. My mind has gone into overdrive, I just know she will gloat, sd will be talking about it all the time, we will have to go and see the nursery, and baby when it gets here etc...and even if we are lucky enough to conceive, everything sd mum does is obviously going to be the 'right' way and my way will be wrong. Worst case senario is that if we (god forbid) have problems trying to conceive...what then, I know I won't be able to carry on pretending everything is fine, listening and seeing her in her perfect world. I know I sound bitter , and I don't think I am, I just feel like shouting its not fair!! I'm just not sure I can cope with it. I feel so sad
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