Those who work

[Onlyonewayout]

I’ve never really been able to find a job that fits around the kids. They’re all primary age and I have two children with complex special needs, one has medical needs as well. We’ve not been able to find childcare. I’m now working PT, work from home in a school based job where technically I shouldn’t work holidays except I do. The job is insanely busy. I look after more people than anyone else and I’m utterly shattered. I love working but this job is leaving me so stressed. The last person who did my role lasted just one academic year. We loosely keep in touch and she says it’s just a ridiculously busy job. It’s crushing what little self esteem I have as I don’t feel I’m doing well. I’ve bought it up to my bosses how busy I am, how I want to do the best I can but I’m managing significantly more people than the other three people in the team. I just don’t know what to do. I know I won’t find another job as I’m so restricted on hours. When I’ve not worked I’ve felt like a sponge and a failure. But now I feel I’m not doing anything well enough. We can’t afford a cleaner or anything like that so I’m still fielding the chores as well. Has anyone managed to find a flexible job? I’ve looked and can’t seem to find anything.