..but not sure where I should post this one. Posting here because I've name changed and at least it proves I'm a regular. I want to ask a question but to do so I need to give some detail. It's about blow jobs, and may be triggering (twice warned!).
I'm in trauma therapy for some other things and I've started having problems with my throat. I've started having memories of giving blow jobs. I wasn't forced, to start off with, but then after a bit, when I (obviously!) had my mouth full, he would grab my head firmly and I couldn't speak or stop it. I did think about biting, but I didn't want to hurt him and I've a pretty small mouth so my jaws would often be kind of locked so it would have been difficult. However, I definitely did not want to continue.
The thing was this was basically standard in all my relationships from my first one onwards. I have no idea if he (they) knew I didn't want to continue, but he very certainly didn't care: it was just about him and where his dick was. I would feel like a "vessel" at the time - he didn't care anymore who I was, just where his dick was.
So, obviously I had issues with communicating what I didn't want, but I am wondering if this is a normal thing that happens with BJs both in terms of the head grabbing the vessel feeling.
I have an idea that this could be a really loving act (and I did usually enjoy it until the point my head was grabbed), but I can't compare with DH because it turns out he's asexual..which is a whole other (long) thread!
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MysteryJellyfish · 23/09/2017 20:08
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