I found some old diaries of mine from years and years ago and I was reading through them. They made me feel really cringey and embarrassed to read as I was such a different person then. At the time I was in (unrequited) love with someone and shortly after I met my DH. I was still in love with the other person when I met DH (though it did stop fairly quickly afterwards) and though the diaires don't say as much, it's pretty obvious.
So, basically - I can't decide whether to throw the diaries away or not. Part of me wants to keep the memories of this man as it was so important to me at the time) and they represent years and years of my life. Also part of me thinks that maybe my children will like to read them, when they're older and - not to get too depressing here! - when I'm no longer here. The diaries detail when I met my DH and our early years together so that might be nice for them to read. On the other hand, some of it is very personal and do I really want my kids reading about the first time I slept with my DH?! [ick emoticon]. And surely they wouldn't want to read about me being in love with somebody else?! Another factor is that I wouldn't want my DH to read them. He has no idea I was in love with this man and, whilst I probably should've told him, I felt there was no point as nothing EVER happened and this other person wasn't even aware of how I felt. I don't feel comfortable having something around that I don't want DH to see (I don't like the thought of having a secret from him) but I wouldn't want him to be upset by reading it either. I did love reading about this man from my past again but it did also upset me to think of those times so maybe I should ditch them and try to lose the reminders.
I really can't decide what to do - I am a ridiculously sentimental person and half of me wants to keep them and half of me wants to get rid of everything from that part of my life. I'm sorry to waffle on - this really isn't a problem like some of the people on this thread are having, I know, so I hope people don't mind me faffing on here. I just wondered what you thought.
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Should I throw away these old diaries?
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pppickupapenguin · 30/09/2009 13:57
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