I separated from my exH this time last year after a very emotionally abusive 17 year marriage. He was my first boyfriend and we have two DDs. He always told me no man would ever want me, Im not very physically attractive but I am a good soul, my self esteem is really low from his emotional abuse and I still have a lot of pain from it.
Last week I found out that he has a new woman and child on the way. He was also cheating throughout the last 3 years of my marriage which knocked me for six. I just feel so worthless and alone tonight, feeling stupid for not seeing that he was cheating.
I've tried online dating with absolutely no success. I'm starting to believe my ex was right and that no man will ever want me, hes moving on with a new family whilst I'm still lonely, it feels unfair but I guess I'm being unreasonable.
I look at couples in the street and feel so envious, I can't imagine what it would be like to have a man want to spend time with me and value me. I know its important to value myself, but I've never had romantic love or companionship. I just wonder if anyone else here ever feels like this? Did you manage to overcome your sadness?
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Mermaidwaves · 13/08/2020 22:02
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