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I am in darkness

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brokenlamt · 09/08/2020 10:04

Hi. Just looking for some advice or to chat really. My life feels like it is in pieces. I lost my pregnancy early on this year, my partner, my hours at work have been reduced, had a leak in my home that has cost a huge amount to put back together, I’m suffering badly with anxiety and trying to hold down a career that is so demanding on less pay than usual (hours cut). I feel awful about myself and my life. I don’t see a way forward. I see family sometimes but they live 45 miles away, so it’s not like they are round the corner. I have friends where I live but everyone is settled down so I rarely see them. We spend time talking on the phone mostly.

Against all of this, two friends got engaged this week. A different two announced pregnancies. My brother gets married in March and it is all we hear about. My ex has moved in with someone within the space of 2 months. I suspect she is pregnant as he wouldn’t commit otherwise like that. I know these things don’t impact my life but it makes me feel so much more alone. I genuinely do not believe I will have these things now. Life just hasn’t happened for me how I had hoped.

Everyday is hard. I’n having counselling. I’m doing what I can but I am not ok. I feel sad everyday. Can anyone help me see the light. My life feels full of darkness.

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redcarbluecar · 09/08/2020 10:07

So sorry to hear all of this - what a horrible year for you. It doesn't sound as if there are 'quick fixes' to any of this, but I hope that over time things get better for you and the light returns. How's the counselling going?

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Somethingkindaoooo · 09/08/2020 10:26

I think everyone has periods in their lives where everything goes to shit. It's the wheel of life- sometimes you're at the top, sometimes you're at the bottom.

It will get better. A bit trite, but the saying ' everything is ok in the end, if it's not ok, it's not the end' is so true.
Keep moving forward, even if it's in tiny steps,and you WILL get through it.

I promise you, one day you'll look back, and see that going through this not only made you tough as nails, but it cleared the way for much better things.