Before I type this I just want to say I know there’s always a chance that things will change etc etc. But I’ve got to the point now where hoping, wishing and dreaming for that family unit is tearing me apart. I want to erase the idea that it COULD happen...I’m 36 next month so looks ever less likely.
Please can people tell me how to live my life and give up this dream of mine? It is the dreaming and hoping that is destroying me. I’ve always wanted it but in the last year my life has felt paralysed by it...everything I think about is kids, meeting someone etc. And I have dated but I’m drained by it now and don’t take up second dates etc as all I am bothered about is a family and it always feels so unfamiliar meeting someone and being superficial over drinks for a date. I just can’t do it anymore.
I don’t want to want these things...I would do anything to wake up and think yep, I don’t want kids and don’t care about marriage. I would feel liberated.
How can I get to this point? I am so sad and feel grief for what i haven’t had and just want to write off the idea that I want it.
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help me get over my dreams please? im broken
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panicsktrimes · 04/08/2020 15:43
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