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I had my shopping delivered yesterday and as I opened the door I realised the delivery man was my childhood best friend. The thing is, he used to sexually abuse me . I instantly felt sick and nearly lost use of my legs. I havnt seen him in over 15 years, since my mid teens.
He started asking questions about my life and I just about managed to hold the conversation . When he left I felt super shaky. Loads of memories came flooding back, things I've tried to bury, and I'm still unsettled and anxious 24 hours later.
I've always found it hard to deal with what happened to me as he was the same age as me and it happened between the ages of 8-11. I know now that something might have been going on at home for him to do that to me, but what he done effected me a lot and the way I was with sex later on. I was very confused and didn't know what was happening to me back then.
I don't know what I want from this thread. I just wanted to get it down. My DH is amazing but he doesn't know the full extent of it.
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ItsHardToTalk · 21/06/2020 10:39
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