Hi everyone,
I do not know where to start. This is the first time I post on Mumsnet, let alone any online forums. I do apologise as this is going to be a long post but I am in desperate need of support/ help right now. My husband and I have been together for 10 years, married for almost 5. We have a young son who is my absolute moon and stars. Since he was born our relationship has progressively turned sour. It has now reached such a level of abuse and toxicity that life has become unbearable. For 5 years I have kept everything bottled up. I used to be a happy bubbly outgoing person. Not anymore. My relationship problems have turned me into someone else. They have changed me, mentally but also physically. Years of destructive anger turned into hate, sadness turned into depression has taken a massive toll on my health. Migraines, heart racing and difficulties sleeping at night, chronic fatigue, joint pain, stomach ulcer are among the many health problems I have been suffering from for the last 2 years. I have also put on near 25kgs, as I binge eat fast food in a bid to make me feel better. I can barely look at myself in the mirror, and whenever I do I think I am ugly. I do not have any friends anymore. And I mean not a single one (rather pathetic for 35 years old but there you have it). I have cut ties with everyone I knew because I cannot face the humiliation of being in this position. I am desperately alone in all this. a year ago I managed to find the bravery to call a local domestic abuse charity and hunger up when the person answered the phone. One evening I also called Good Samaritans. But that was it. I often thought about posting online but I am terrified someone would recognise me. Anyway, why today I do not know.
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Really need support. Terrified of what is going to happen to me.
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Amy1906 · 06/06/2020 17:36
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