I feel low today. I'm sick of being home with DH, I wish he would go back to work already (he's off until end July). While it's been helpful having him here to split childcare of DC, I miss my alone time. We don't spent much quality time together, he spends most mornings out exercising and then in the afternoon I do household chores (laundry, cleaning bathrooms etc) and 30 mins of exercise in the garden while he looks after DC. I know I am very fortunate to have him home as DC is only three months old and I would probably be feeling overwhelmed on my own every day. I should be thankful for the spare time in the afternoons but right now I'm fed up and want the house to myself.
At the same time I feel lonely. My two closest friends don't seem to have time for me right now (one of them is heavily pregnant and has a lot on her plate, the other is a social butterfly type and right now is prioritising other friends who are willing to go out with her). The only people who seem to want to talk to me (and are pressuring us to socialise with them in their gardens) are my mother and my in-laws, neither of whom I am looking forward to spending time with. My mum & I have a complicated relationship due to her being neglectful and emotionally abusive to me as a child. I was close to my Dad but he died recently. My in-laws are nice people but I don't have meaningful conversations with them & find them quite hard work sometimes plus they want to spend so much time with us I find it suffocating (especially having grown up fast and being used to independence because of my own childhood).
Its like the people I want to talk to don't have time for me and the people who constantly want my attention I don't want to give it to.
I feel like I have nothing to look forward post lockdown, it's just going to be more time with the in-laws. I could cry.
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coronawoes · 28/05/2020 14:23
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