1st LTR he cheated, I ended it. He was emotionally abusive too.
2nd LTR all was good or so I thought. One day I came home from work all his stuff was gone and I was blocked on everything. No word or warning.
I've been used as a punchbag and raped by others.
Said after that I wasn't going to do it again, wasn't going to line myself up to get hurt that way again.
Since saying that, I started a new job and met an amazing guy. Weve been together now for 10 months, he has shown me what real love is, we love eachother to bits. He's so loving, caring and attentive. He knows everything there is to know about me and vice versa.
I'm haunted by my past relationships and I'm scared to death of being hurt again. I don't think it'll happen with this guy, when you know, you know, right? We've spoke about marriage, getting our own place. Growing old together.
We've not seen eachother since lockdown but we do videocall, chat and text daily.
But also during lockdown, my mind has been doing overtime. What if this, what if that. Ive got no reason to be thinking these things and I'm worried that my anxieties will end up pushing him away. I tell him worries, I can tell him anything and he's been so good and understanding. Tells me it'll all work out once the lockdown is over and we can move forward with our life together.
How do I get myself out of this way of thinking? I've got to stop it, ive got no reason to be thinking like this.
Help me please!
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RS0000 · 24/05/2020 08:27
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