I am estranged from my mother. I tried to reconcile with her but it failed (though no overt antagonism, it seems my mother has simply decided not to try and build bridges). The difficult thing to try to come to terms with is that my mother has never been properly there for me - emotionally absent whilst I was growing up (ignoring narcissist). She also stood by and watched some physical abuse take place, not wanting to leave the situation for fear of material loss.
Sometimes I feel angry but mainly I have found myself craving a mother figure. Recently, I tried to develop a sort of mother figure relationship with a woman of around my mother's age, only to find that this woman who can be brilliant at times, can also disconnect and not communicate. Don't get me wrong it is not this woman's fault, it is all about my expectations. I want to find a way of becoming less needy and vulnerable and I am due to receive some therapy in the near future (I have a fear I will become dependent on the therapist). These types of mother figures have drifted into my life on occasion (twice before) then drifted out again but without a doubt they added something to my life and I feel sad they are no longer there. I think the key is to work on the inner child which I have been trying to do, still there feels like there is a great big hole. I have only a few friends and I try to offer something back, if that makes sense but at the moment, I feel let down again and it exasperates my feelings of aloneness. I have a dh and dcs but I am having one or two issues with dh and this is only compounding things - again I hope to address in therapy. Other than my immediate family, I have hardly any extended family. My db is complicated and has many issues of his own.
Can anyone relate?
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user48675 · 22/05/2020 22:57
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