I've been with a man for almost a year. I've never felt this way about someone before and it's been great albeit there have been some tough times due to my overthinking things.
I feel like lockdown is making me a nightmare. My anxiety is getting worse day by day (I'm already on medication which has helped up to now and also speak to a therapist). All I can think about is the future and whether we will get to live together, get engaged, get married, have kids etc. I'm 34 and I'm worried about time ticking on but of course can't say that as it sounds awful!
He's said the right things in terms of wanting some of those things in future but I definitely don't think he wants to discuss it now and I recognise it's too soon. I'm just struggling without being able to hear some sort of absolute commitment. I struggle with seeing things in shades of grey, it's all very black and white to me...you're either fully in or fully out. I know this isn't how most people think and I'm getting so upset with myself for not just being able to enjoy the here and now.
I'm sorry, I don't even know what I'm asking you all, I just feel so down and I know I'm pushing him away by being like this. How do you balance with a partner who doesn't move at the same pace as you?
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My anxiety is ruining my relationship
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Varenne · 19/05/2020 07:11
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