For a while now I’ve been more unhappy in my relationship than I’ve probably admitted to anyone – partner included. Although I don’t think he is particularly happy either. Together 15 years, two youngish children, not married.
Haven’t had sex in months (me driving this) – I am on meds than nix my libido and have been for years (predating this relationship). This does not help but isn't immediately resolvable and to be honest I’m not totally convinced that’s the main issue.
When we were first together, DP was very prone to petulant strops, angry driving episodes, etc, and he would nurse the anger for several hours afterwards, with a thunderous look. Other male relatives of his have also been like this, apparently.
I know I should have backed away, but I didn’t have the insight or confidence in my own judgement and was brought up to see the best in people and also (with dull predictableness) with an intolerant father prone to strops. There are still infrequent bouts of DH’s petulance and being extremely short with the kids and me, which I hate, and make us all upset.
Day to day we mostly rub along OK, he does his share around the house, and is loyal, solvent (!), good with money and much more involved with the kids’ lives, after I bashed him over the head with Wifework.
He is now much better on the petulance front, but only after lots of forceful pushback from me. I do know that he has worked very hard to change but… now I just find myself spent and resentful and unable to be arsed any more when these blow-ups occur. I can’t even be arsed to fight back any more. There we are, I can’t change how I feel.
There are some complications as there usually are here, which make contemplating change hard. I won’t go into them all as it’ll be even more of an essay, but they are the usual run of child-related concerns (one has early indications of a MH problem, one pubertal and having friendship issues), housing costs / massive mortgage/ cost of living where we live, and also the fact that we work in the same field. No possibility of moving area nor do I want to.
On the plus side, I have lots of fantastic friends, some great hobbies and lots of interests, and an independent cut to my jib 😉 Being single really doesn’t scare me at all from an emotional POV.
Help, wise women of Mumsnet. Where do I go from here when everything feels so complex and untangle-able?
I know it’s time for a big chat with partner, but I need a sense of whether I’m being unreasonable or overly demanding or not – still haven’t banished my people pleaser instincts totally.
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