Hi all
Regular poster but have NC'ed for this.
I'm in need of a bit of a handhold. Background is my boyfriend and I split up 10 months ago due to incompatible long-term issues. We were together for 18 months, never lived together or anything. (Reasons for split: on his side he didn't want to rule out having children but I have 2 and don't want any more. On my side: he drinks too much - it doesn't affect his behaviour, it never made him aggressive or morose or anything, but there is of course the health issue. He is a functioning alcoholic.) So, there were dealbreakers on both sides.
So, we split up very very amicably last March. The problem is that we stayed too close .... on a weekend we'd often meet for a meal together (daytime) There were lots of cheery chatty phone calls, flirty texts (mainly on his side) and the hint that maybe things would work out. He carried on helping me out with stuff - car, house etc, unprompted. Basically we maintained an emotional closeness that with hindsight we really shouldn't have done.
I did make attempts to move on ... I had the odd tinder date occasionally and even a kiss (and a bit more) with a mutual friend at one point.
Then about September time we got physical again. It didn't happen often, only every six weeks or so, and was only when drunk. Tbh I think the emotional closeness was more of a problem than the physical.
You can guess what's coming next. He has found someone else.
I am truly heartbroken and didn't envisage this. I thought, because we split up for very valid reasons, with dealbreakers on both sides, that I would be fine once one of us found someone else. He wasn't actively looking, he wasn't on dating websites or anything, they just met by chance.
The rational side of me is pleased that he has moved on, and that he's done me a favour, and that the relationship we had, although it seemed like we were boyfriend and g/friend who made a smooth trainsition to close friends, was actually unhealthy and something needed to bring it to an end.
But in my heart I'm gutted. Not sleeping, lots of crying, I am barely eating, and am massively grieving.
He said it doesn't change anything, I'm still his friend and always will be and to call on him for anything at all. I've said though that he needs space to develop this potential romance and I need space to grieve.
I just don't know what to do to help myself? Do I get angry with him? In my head I mean, not go shouting and ranting at him! I feel like he led me on to some extent. Eg. the night after he met her, he told me he had had a flirty encounter with this woman, but he assured me that was all and that it wasn't going to lead to anything. He tried to sleep with me that following day but I didn't. All that afternoon and evening he sent me flirty/romantic/I love you texts and the following day too. Then, the day after that she friend requested him on fb and that was that.
I should add that the same night he met her, i'd gone on a tinder date. Nice guy but no spark. And I honestly don't think that was due to me being hung up on ex-bf. I'm trying to say here that it could have easily been the other way round! What if my date had gone well and he hadn't met her?! I think he would have been very civilised about things. But I also think that him trying to sleep with me and bomarding me with texts that weekend was about him trying to ensure I sacked off the tinder date.
Please help me. I feel truly heartbroken. Go easy on me I know I'm being a bit daft. I'm in my 40s ffs and he was just a bf, and not even a live in one. But I am really really hurting.
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