I can't stop shaking, it's ridiculous as I rarely feel quite this bad even though I do have anxiety.
My partner is drunk, he rarely drinks (once or twice a year) and is acting so obnoxious and rude. We don't have a good relationship especially lately, theres a huge back story but too much to write I'm sorry. But it's bad basically.
He's never been physical to me. He is rude and insulting about people on TV - men and women, about their looks and weight. He'll happily call a woman a THOT. He always always says its a joke and I need to lighten up.
My 15 year old won't leave with me and I am NOT going without him. Tonight partner has made fun of DS music tastes, he told him he never really liked this song our boy loved as a young child and he laughed it off but it broke my soul.
Then a weird thing just now, he was talking about how bad it is to hit a woman, which i great, but then said giving a slap to a man isn't so bad., He said let me do it on you to DS, show you the difference between a punch and slap. He said I won't ever punch you but I'll give you a light slap. DS hid his face and said no, I shouted to leave him alone, I started crying, it was instinctive I couldnt help it. My partner laughed and said "Ah look you mum is crying!!!" with a smile on his face.
When he left the room I said to my son let's go, we can leave now even for one night but he said no way and that dad was just joking, it was play fighting and no big deal and that he found it funny.
So yes, I have probably overreated. I just phoned my partners mum, she just said oh he's drunk ignore him and go to bed, and that he just gets like that when drunk, I should know by now and laugh it off.
Sorry about my grammar, it's usually so much better. What is wrong with me? Why am I shaking and have so much adrenaline in me? feel like I need to run, my legs feel so weird :( like they are buzzing and I need to move. And i feel sick.
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Scared don't understand why, I'm overreacting probably
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cherriXOXO · 15/12/2017 23:03
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