I posted about my husband a few months ago, basically he fucked our lives up by investing everything we had in a business which gave no return, I supported him through 8 years at uni, gave up my life so he could qualify in his chosen profession. We have three children. He was constantly on my back wanting sex, telling me he would make alternative arrangements if I didn't give him more, he wanted me to wear make up all the time because when I go out I am his representative and if I look like shit it reflects badly on him.
So I decided I had to leave but financially it was not viable because of the debts we incurred buying into his old business. Anyway, I have managed to get more content writing work and opened an Etsy shop to sell the jewellery I make in my bid to escape. I even gave did the sex thing, but obviously not enough as again at 4am he got up and started ranting about his shit life, how he works hard and doesn't get rewarded when he gets home. He hasn't fancied me for years because I don't wear make up enough, no woman leaves the house without lipstick on. The next time a woman comes on to him he's going to take the opportunity. I am wracked with anxiety, I can't afford to leave but how the fuck can I stay?
I am constantly on edge, I'm scared of him. I can't live like this anymore, but I am stuck. I can't eat, I don't really sleep, the pressure is constant, he set up a new business six months ago and he wants me to earn more so he doesn't have to work as hard. I can't do this any more. My life is shit, he doesn't care about our standard of living, as long as he is ok. My oven is broken, my washing machine is broken, I am broken, everything is so hard, but his primary concern is my lack of lipstick. I cannot go on, I don't know what I'm hoping to from posting, I think I need a hand hold and maybe a kick up the arse.
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I'm pathetic to still be putting up with this shit, please help.
Cottonheadedninnnymuggins · 05/12/2017 06:30
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