Hi I'm really sorry to bore you all, but I'm desperate for some advice and perspective with situation I'm dealing with at the moment, as I really don't know what to do.
Been with my partner 10 years we got 7 year old child together. Things haven't been great for a while. Around 2 years ago he started to act really weird, very withdrawn, no interaction, not showing interest in anything. After few months of hell he admitted that he is depressed. He went to Gp and started antidepressants but refused any kind of therapy and did not make any changes with his lifestyle, no exercise, quite unhealthy diet, topping it up with lots of alcohol (mainly at the weekends). Anyway pills kicked inn and things got better, he was more himself. Fast forward to few moths ago I noticed his mood started to sinking again, not terribly but noticeable. Anyway I discovered he was taking one pill every few days, once a week. He was basically dosing it himself. He was very cool about it and said that he takes it whenever he feel he needs one.... and it works for him. short after that, the cycle started again he started to ignore me, being withdrawn, completely useless at home etc. On top of that I think he started drinking even more. I honestly thought it's depression , he's overtired and need some space etc, I encourage him to take him pills regularly etc. Few weeks ago we went on holiday with his family, it was truly dreadful for me. I was ignored by him and I think everybody could see this. he didn't talk to me if he didn't really have to. I think during whole week he spoke to me directly maybe 10 times, all in single sentence e.g. Do you want coffee? We leaving in 10 etc. The word part was he was absolutely fine with everyone else, joking, talking normally interacting etc.
We came home and this behaviour continued. At the weekend I couldn't take it any more and we started to talk. It quickly transpired he wanted to leave as it's "been a lot on his mind lately" "we just annoy each other, holidays clearly showed we don't get along, I'm not happy and blaming on him lack of career (absolutely not true) I'm basically shit mother etc. I was devastated, suggested counselling or just to try things somehow. It was declined. His word "counselling would only prolong things, I don't think I can change etc. It's pretty clear he doesn't fancy me anymore, probably doesn't love me, never seen him so cold, he wasn't even looking at me. It seems to me like he wants me to disappear. I just told him to think about this and let me know when he will make his mind up on what he wants to do. Anyway I'm devastated been crying for these few past days more then ever, but know I'm getting really angry at the way he is treating me. I feel such a fool and doormat. I approached the subject tonight asked him if he thought about it and did he make his mind up. Well no, and that was it, wasn't even looking at me. I'm pretty sure his objective is to worn me down so much so I will finally say ok I be got enough I want out and I will leave... (which I'm very close to do) and his problem disappear. I would never suspect myself that I will take so much crap from anyone and I truly don't know how I ended up letting him treat me like that. I don't know when he turned into this horrible selfish, cruel person and I really don't know if I can take it anymore. I really need some advice and perspective on this because I'm going crazy, and not sure how long I can do it. I did not expect this to be so long, thanks for reading.
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kiki69 · 08/11/2017 23:34
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