Where to begin.
Please be kind. I am driving myself crazy.
DP of 4 years broke up with me several weeks ago. I went away on a last minute holiday with family and when I came back he said he changed his mind. I told him that it wasn't that simple, he had really hurt me.
SO I moved into my own place. He comes over usually once during the week and the weekend unless he's going on a night out (which has been most weekends to be honest).
Now I'm not sure how I feel anymore. I love him so so so much but it doesn't feel the same anymore... he can't love me that much if he wasn't sure about me?
His reasoning was that he doesn't know if he wants to settle down, get married etc. We are both 27.
Something feels off... I can't put my finger on it. We speak every day. I flip from accepting the situation and making the most of it to being irrationally angry and maybe I should go out and find somebody who is sure about me. I can't imagine myself with anybody else. I can't even remember the last time I fancied anybody else.
As a separate note, I want to try and enjoy my new found sort of singledom (we have agreed we wouldn't be doing anything with anybody else) by joining the gym, or going to zumba or something with friends but I can't. I have 2 dogs, And work full time. The dog walker comes every day but by the time I get home I feel as though I can't leave them alone again. So I'm stuck in the flat by myself every evening.
I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve from this. I feel like I'm losing my mind double questioning the whole situation, my confidence has been crushed...
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Pombliboo123 · 09/10/2017 18:42
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