Hi,
I've posted about my mother before but things have really come to a head now. I snapped over a phone call last week where she informed me she is going into counselling to deal with having me as a daughter.
She's been what I suspect is narcissistic towards me for as long as I can remember. There's LOADS but mostly it was things like belittling me, not bothering to make sure I knew how to take care of myself (when I started my periods I had to go looking for a free pad they'd given away in 19 magazine, and go cap in hand to her later to ask her to buy me things which she made a huge drama about) she refused to come to my first parent's evening at a new high school because she said she didn't want to have to sit there and listen to the teachers tell her how great and clever I was when she knew different and I'd manipulated them.
She's excluded me from family holidays since I was 14 because I 'bring the mood down'.
I have two younger brothers who are totally adored by her and were treated totally differently.
Anyway, suffice to say she's a horror and the way I've preserved the self esteem I had left over the years was (after trying many times to forge some sort of relationship and failing miserably) to keep my distance. I think they call it grey rock. I am polite and cordial but she gets no detail/involvement in my life. I do not live close by and limit visits to my home town.
Anyway that all came to a head last week and I have decided I do not want her in my life at all, because I am not willing to accept that I am the nasty bitter person she says I am.
I cut her off from my social media and blocked her number. She's furious, and I got the inevitable Email about how I've devastated her by being so nasty, why couldn't I just get over things and move on now we are adults, she doesn't agree that it was anything more than a personality clash bla bla bla. She's ill from the stress and had to go on anti depressants, and other things that is quite frankly her emotionally blackmailing me.
She's informed me that all her friends and everyone she has talked to think I'm an absolute nightmare
Now I've had a 'flying monkey' visit (my little brother lives in the same city as me, as apparently I took him away from her) he has told me that mum doesn't understand what she's done wrong and he is supposed to act as a mediator.
Frankly, I've had a skin full of it and any sadness I had over having had a mother like that reared its head long ago and has mostly died down. Although obviously I will always feel sad about it. But my question is, so you tell the person why you do not want them in your life and why, it do you have to ride out all these blips before they get the message?
Any advice from anyone who's ever been in a similar situation is very welcome, thank you in advance!
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HarrietKettleWasHere · 19/09/2017 14:56
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